oh my god I’m so fucking bored but the internet shuts off in 20 minutes and more than anything I just want to be able to talk to John but I guess that just isn’t really a thing anymore like why is it so hard to just humor me I mean honest to fuck I’m having a hard enough time as it is what with graduation and money and people and my depression and *that* and I mean for fuck’s sake is it really so hard to at least pretend to be understanding and supportive? you were in high school too, so why is it so hard to remember that? I mean, I know my problems aren’t “real world” problems but I guarantee my life is just as shitty as yours, even if you don’t see my problems as valid just because they aren’t your problems. More than anything I wish we could just talk again like we used to without you being a douche about whatever I happen to be into, even if it’s unintentional. Also, being a douche is ABSOLUTELY NO EXCUSE for not trying. I mean, let’s be honest here, we all know what a bitch I am but do you see me blowing you off? NO. God damn it this isn’t even what I was originally upset about. Basically, what I’m saying is that I am like a flower. I need attention or I wilt. This is almost exactly what happened with Dillon, and I really, really, reallyreallyreally don’t want that to happen again. Well, I mean, at least we still see each other, but I guess all I really want is for us to, you know, talk.